It's been a while, huh?

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So.... uhhh.... Hi....


I started this blog back when I was in senior high, during the COVID-19 Pandemic. It has been... holy fucking shit, 4 years?!


I started randomly writing stuff in blogspot after a sudden peak of inspiration during my creative non-fiction class, with the intention of this being a healthy creative outlet for me in order to better express myself and relieve some stress through the magical power of finding things to distract you from everything else going on in the world! It started out great, I was happy researching and writing the things I was putting up on this blog, but for some reason, everything just... *snaps* stopped.

After some point in August 2022, I sort of disappeared and essentially abandoned ship. Whoops, my bad, really. Stuff at that point got extremely busy. Since that last post, I was busy doing college for the past few years. I am a B.S. Psychology Major in Benilde Antipolo, currently in my Senior/4th Year, and preparing for graduate in February 2026.

Looking back, one of the main problems I had with this blog, alongside my other creative endeavors such as YouTube and Art, was two fold: 1) I am really bad at time management and never gave myself the time to commit doing these things because of school and shit; and 2) specifically for the blog and YT, I didn't really have that much stuff top make into content anyway, or rather, I didn't really know how to talk about them in the first place.

If you looked back at the blog as a whole, it was mostly opinion pieces coming where although I didn't really know what I was talking about, I was happy just simply talking about stuff I found interesting and what I like/dislike about that stuff. A lot of it centered around Dungeons and Dragons content and my life under quarantine lockdown. The entirety of this website was just me free writing (technically) and dumping the thoughts of my brain out on my keyboard, watching the nice Times New Roman letters pop on a white sheet in my monitor to become a finished essay of organized chaos and comprehensible nonsense. As I am writing all this, I am actually looking through the blog webpage itself and reading my past entries, which are all fun and I'm glad I made those posts as a way for me to look back and see what the Yugi of 4-5 years ago thought about Instant Noodles and Fast Food.

I made a little piece where I essentially wrote about how blogs are weird when I was very active on the blog, and I still agree with a lot of the stuff I wrote there. This blog is essentially a very public journal/diary thing where I can write about what I feel without the need of getting carpal tunnel from my horrible handwriting. Its a very fulfilling hobby, now that I am actually getting back into the swing of typing things down, and I missed doing it.

There was probably 3 years worth of things I could've wrote about and posted in the blog, but I am just going to shelve those for now until I feel like it and/or remember the details of what exactly I wanted top talk about with those memories. At the same time, me at the present has gone through and explored a ton of cool things that could be very cool to talk about in the blog format. I rode trains; made a small series of vlog-esque videos up on Instagram; did my thesis paper; did both my internships for the industrial-human resource and clinical settings; bought games from steam with real money; streamed myself playing said games live on twitch.tv/YugiBearz01; made new friends; reconnected with old ones; and ACTUALLY UPGRADED MY COMPUTER!

Fucking hell man, all that potential content. Sayang talaga HAHAHAHAHAHA! Well, not really. I could always fire up the keyboard again and start typing about that stuff some other time. There's no rush. This is a hobby blog afterall, and looking at the view counts and stats, I am not really expecting this thing to kick off... nor do I want it to tbh. I like it how it is, so I'll keep it that way, but be more active in posting things to it.

I have reached the terminus of my collage journey, it has been.... unique per say. I feel like I have faired significantly better than a good number of people in my friend group who are slugging it out trying to either shift courses or catch up on incomplete requirements. Of course, I have had my ups and downs as well, but that's a different discussion.  It just feels so odd to now be at this point. I look back at my old self who was so scared and optimistic about college, and all I do have to say to him was.. "yeah it's high school with more steps", and now looking at life after college, where the real adulting begins, and saying "I still have no idea what I'm doing either... but we'll figure it out."

I knew very early on that adults, and practically everyone for that matter, doesn't know what is going on with the planet or what to do with their lives, and we are all practically just randomly faffing about trying to get some sense of direction going on.... and I never really expected myself to figure it out either. Shit's insane, but it's that insanity where we find pockets of cool things where we do feel sane and enjoy ourselves. I am an adult, a fucking 22 year old. HOLY SHIT I started this blog site when I was 17, at a time when TikTok and Vlogging was popular, and even more so today! I have actual uber UNC Aura frfrfr skibity toilet 676767676767676767676767 (forgive me, I also want to shoot myself).

AI is also a big thing now compared to before, and although I heavily use it for school shit.... fuck AI man. This shall be an AI free blog. When you read the Bears Den, you're getting 100% artistically crafted and mediocrely written nonsensical chaos MADE BY MAN (and occasionally the built-in spell checker tool).


So... what now?

  • Will I write more things: Yeah, probably. I'll try at least once or twice a month. If I get more, hooray!
  • Any controversial/political shit: I'm not qualified to articulate that shit, but I'll throw my hat in the ring on shit I feel is important! Such as my thoughts on Trains and Public Transportation in the Philippines so.. /shrug. wait for that.
  • tl;dr: Disappeared for a while cos school and shit for some years. Assumed blog had been deleted until literally a couple weeks ago. I still think this shit is cool, so imma keep writing on the blog.


It's 1:10AM, I have to get to bed. We'll catch up some other time. If you managed to read all this, thank you so much for sticking around, or stumbling so far in the internet you somehow found this. Hehe. More stuff awaits if you're willing to wait.


Thanks for stopping by!


-- YugiBearz

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