The Bears Den

  I has begin the process, of making le food Today is the end of the 3rd day of me living alone in the house for the week. Honestly I couldn't believe I was able to sustain myself this far without some how fucking something up big time. Well, I guess the biggest bad I have technically done was... not walk the dog everyday as I initially promised, especially in my new years resolution, but I felt the amount of physical house work I have been doing so far should be enough to basically be equivalent to what I have promised at the time. I also realized that, when factoring in the actual responsibilities I have around the house and tasks I keep on giving to myself in order to not resort to hiding in my room and gaming for the rest of the day, the resolutions I have listed out for 2026 are... REALLY hard to achieve on my own. My saving grace is that I don't really give a shit about resolutions, and that even though I have not achieved what I set out to do, I have done other things th...

23 y/o lives alone for a week To be clear: I have not moved out of my parents' place yet. I still live with them, but at the moment, they do not live with me. During the Christmas Season last 2025, my dad told me that he and my mom were going to the province to visit family and, more importantly, handle a lot of important paperwork related to some land titles that my dad has worked on finalizing for years now. I dunno how long exactly, but it has been a while. A long time before that, while my dad was still abroad, my mom asked me if I wanted to go to Mindanao for vacation when my dad came back. For various reasons, which I will probably discuss at a different time, I jokingly told my mom that I would rather stay home. Eventually, which was more like a couple of weeks after my dad came back, the question turned serious, well, not serious serious, more like plans were actually being made for the family to head to Mindanao for vacation. I still, quite adamantly, answered that I would...

 read back on some old posts, and i saw that i once mentioned some time ago in like christmas 2021 idk that i became an atheist... uhhhh that aged just as well as spoilt milk. i'm catholic again. shit happens and life is just weird like that. been "catholic again" for quite some time, since i got into college ig like 2nd yr, and tbh i feel happier like that then when i was an athiest. its sort of nice to at least know that even though one's own personal struggles happen for seeminly no reason, one could always rely on there being a God up there listening to prayers. it is kinna doodoo to expect some mystical magical sandman fairy dust to just pop by and all your problems will be solved for you. you kinda have to figure shit out for yourself, and for the most part, one has to accept the fact that the answers we may find may not be satisfying answers, and what may be correct is one view is wrong in another lens, or even, what can be considered the "correct" an...

  It do be 2026 this year... hooray Welp!  This post was a couple days late. My apologies. As of writing, it is the 2nd of January 2026, and I gotta say, so far the new year has been... a resounding okay. Since moving to Angono, Rizal, the new years have progressively been getting quieter and quieter, not only because of the fact we now live significantly further away from the typical New Years mayhem in Quezon City, but also because I have... not been as excited for the new years as I used to be. When I was younger, it felt like a mystical time, where I was given the coveted greenlight to stay up late without getting into trouble, and see the sheer power of fireworks as they loudly shoot up into the midnight sky and explode into a spectacle of visual splendor. Nowadays... getting up past 3am is a common fact of life for me personally, and what used to be absolute endless volleys of fireworks being fired continuously throughout the night as if we were at war, has now turned in...

  Yeah, we're talking about the game as well. Many, many years ago, when I was a kid, my elementary school pulled our grade level into the scouting program of the Boy Scouts of the Philippines (BSP). At the time, I was really excited about the idea of being a boy scout, and at the time, a lot of that was influenced by media, specifically cartoons such as the movie Up  and the Camp Lazlo  cartoon. There were probably a lot of others, but you get the point. I had always wondered what it would be like to be a scout, go camping, tie knots, and so on. It was mostly from an American lens, since my only frame of reference was how the Boy Scouts of America was depicted in media; however, the enthusiasm was there! Long story short... it was sort of meh. I was in the scouting program for only like, 2-3 years until I transferred schools for 7th grade, and we didn't do much. The days we got to don the scout uniform were rare throughout the school year, and it mostly stayed in the bac...

  So.... uhhh.... Hi.... I started this blog back when I was in senior high, during the COVID-19 Pandemic. It has been... holy fucking shit, 4 years?! I started randomly writing stuff in blogspot after a sudden peak of inspiration during my creative non-fiction class, with the intention of this being a healthy creative outlet for me in order to better express myself and relieve some stress through the magical power of finding things to distract you from everything else going on in the world! It started out great, I was happy researching and writing the things I was putting up on this blog, but for some reason, everything just... *snaps* stopped. After some point in August 2022, I sort of disappeared and essentially abandoned ship. Whoops, my bad, really. Stuff at that point got extremely busy. Since that last post, I was busy doing college for the past few years. I am a B.S. Psychology Major in Benilde Antipolo, currently in my Senior/4th Year, and preparing for graduate in Februar...